Lights Off

You know what i miss? People who have left my life. HAH. Everyone misses people who leaves their lives. The dead or the living. But sometimes they leave for the better because no matter what you build your life stronger. There are only memories to keep, pictures to reminisce but courage to move on. These people came into your life, make you smile, make you laugh, sad and sometimes even a feeling you never felt before. And then they leave with a tattoo on you that will stay with you forever.

I once grew up with a girl i thought i was gonna live with for the rest of my life. A girl i known for almost 10 years whom we went through everything together. A girl i loved like as though she was a sister to me. We met when I was 9 years old. And she was 6. See now can you imagine how we grew up. Went through everything! Puberty, those Barbie/Bratz days, those times where we have no worries about life, jumping on the bed, boy-band crushes, music interest. We thought each other everything for almost 10 years. Secrets that only we know, words that only we invent, bedtime stories told by us and made each other fell asleep after. These were the days that you'll remember a lifetime because she is who you are today.

*HAHAHA! My 14th bday at Shook, Star Hill

*Me and Izara on my 15th birthday at Planet Hollywood

Some of the pictures are embarrassing. But that's us. Young, ugly and nothing but noobs. :)

We laughed for whatever reasons, even the little stupid things. We laugh by just not saying anything but know what were we laughing about. I miss those days were i used to laugh at everything and anything. I miss those days where spontaneous meant everyday to us. When Icha fell down from jumping on the bed to the Lego we enthusiastically did and had no cries or anger towards it but instead we laughed about it. I miss every single moment of that life we used to have.

At some point of our lives, we have no options but to face life's bitchy facts.

That is when Izara and me went our separate ways. We told ourselves that we cold be strong for each other because we know that there will be something/someone along the way will keep us apart from each other. But as I turn 20, she's growing up fast and opportunities moved us forward, we learn to grow up without one another. We learn to keep secrets away from each other. We learn to learn new things without having the other's opinion. We learn to face fact that we will never be able to do/be what we were before.

*Izara's 16th Bday

These are the things you'll remember in life. The people who left you but they are still in front of your very eyes. You can do nothing but to remember the memories you share. These are the things that have you marked in your heart forever.